Meeting God in Surgery
19. December 2007
Mansay family and friends,
Finally am home after the back surgery and God Willing will keep recovering step by step.
This was by far the most difficult physical trial I have been through in my small stay here on Earth.
I sincerely want to thank you for your prayers and support.
Pain - intense Pain is such a great teacher. I was in so much Pain at several points after I came out of the operating room I can't really describe my state of mind in words.
Now that I am in a more reflective state and can look back and even laugh at a few moments of the ordeal I realized my whole life I have wanted to come closer to God, closer to True Parents, closer to Jesus to try to understand what motivates them . . . . . and this means going through pain and trials, not avoiding them. How can I know God's heart if I avoid trials and the pain they bring?
I think now I can grasp God, the Creator, our Heavenly Parents simply wants to end the pain and suffering of His Children - even though we brought it on ourselves. He needs me to jump in where I can to help ease the pain of His kids. Nothing else really matters - ending the pain of children who are suffering.
I feel the biggest block is we don’t feel others pain as our own.
WEll enough on my Painful Reflection. Once again thank you for your support - the surgery was only supposed to be for 3 hours but ended up being 6. Still haven't figured out what the "problem" was.
God Bless You all as is the case the spiritual heart power of the San Diego community got me through yet another hairy situation (whether on the frontline in Iraq or the Operating Room at Balboa) and I will never forget it Kamsa-hamnida and Mansay to you all!!!
When I think of the San Diego Community of Faith only tears of gratitude come up but, I hide them away like a good jarhead so no one will think I am weak! (it is true though just ask Yuriko she has seen this "tough guy" blubber like a baby on more than one occasion.
Your little brother
Justin